I had my own world of small things, unusual things and looking at things from rare dimension. I sometimes wished to be not controlled by inertia. I basically never liked to be controlled. I always drew a broken cage and a wounded free bird which struggled to came out of it. I always liked to rescue living organic matter. I don't know, I always appreciate madness and even intensity for feelings.
I hated to be compared regardless of compared for good or bad, every time I was compared -I felt like a cruel emperor is conquering my Kingdom. I loved to be unnoticed and holding an unknown identity, I found my heaven in being isolated and disconnected from world. I kind of protected my identity, behavior, thoughts from being exposed. I was scared that I will be mistaken. I never wanted anyone to understand me or second with me about anything. Closeness scared me the most, it still does. I guess there must be a theory, according to which souls with matching wavelengths understand things the way you want them to be understood without any explanation.
I never lost my focus, I always did well at work, I always was organized, I always was accurate about time and figures. I always fulfilled promises; I always lied about my name to strangers. I was obsessed with observation. I can still find a multi-story building can gaze down for hours. I find some concepts confusing and absurd. Like, we are never scared of height -it's depth we are scared of. You are not scared unless you are on top and scared of falling down. I have always been stubborn and no one can win an argument with me, but I don't want to be a part of argument in first place.
I always use to get nightmares like drowning in water or lost in a dark unknown place. I always find it upsetting to see a flower or plant die. I am a reader like it's my religion. I always try to look at the intent of something. I love being on right side of anything like in car or bed or sitting next to people. I don't know and don't want to know how valid I am. That's just me; I will never compromise with my beliefs. We all have our own valid point which doesn't need anyone's authorization. Something’s are abstract and science is not even a tangent to it. Think!! Signing out.. may God bless y’all.. :)