But if we relate and realize all the possibilities being in opposite situation, maybe we can empathize well. When you hear something bad about somebody you hate them, but when similar thing happens with you –you develop affinity for them; certainly you hate them a little less and hate yourself a little for being that wrong. Some people are too good, they love you even when you don’t deserve it and you know it. Love is a chain you know. We receive, we gotta give. If you hold it back, you won’t be happy for long. I hate some people for being mean, selfish and doing odd things to me. I know they are not good enough to be connected, but still I keep them in circle hoping it all will be fine.
Thing I hate myself about is procrastination. I delay things that need to be cut out in no time and that’s why it kicks me back and somehow it goes on loop. I also hate it when I do good to people who don’t deserve it and do less good to people who deserve it. Sometimes people do bad things and go on doing it without any reason, and it becomes a habit. They do not have bad intentions, it is just they don’t know and don’t wanna know the consequences. Not knowing is not bad, but choosing to not know causes harm. When you keep hurting people, it brings odd things to you too, or maybe I am saying this ‘cause it sounds better and relieves me and keeps me going on doing well.
Sometimes I don’t understand the reason of something odd happened, but most of the times I don’t wanna understand ‘cause it has already been on the loop multiple times that it has become so cliché that it starts repelling me. Being in night shift I enter my own room like a thief, silent and lost and hit myself with things being in dark so that other people in room don’t wake up. But not always you reap what you sow. Sometimes, it is exact opposite and disappointing. Sometimes, you are at wrong place and wrong time and with wrong people, and everything falls apart. When you are not sleepy and trying hard to sleep, even a tic of clock annoys you.
I don’t know, maybe not everything is to be understood. There are people who understand you, who don't understand you and then ones who don't want to understand you. But that's okay; you are not theorem to be understood. Sometimes you hang out with people with absolutely opposite traits, that is how you gain experience and a remarkable episode. There are multiple types of people –some people read complete book. Some people get bored and hop onto another one. Some people read a book and randomly come across a book they can’t ignore and they bookmark the first book. Some people jump the lines and finish the chapters just to know what happened. Some people underline best lines and remember them forever. It all describes a lot about behavior.
Things change, people change, thinking change, everything that exists –change. How can you believe a promise then? Maybe there is that profound intensity of understanding and belief that sells you this. Sometimes it is all a dogma, you never want to believe and dislike everything and everyone equally. Does anybody relate with that? Sometimes you like dogs more than people, ‘cause you don’t want to be judged and need a hug. A pet gives you all that without much in return. People are vulnerable at times, their morals go so paper thin that they make momentary self-comfort primary and everything else secondary. Sometimes your idea of understanding people proves to be totally wrong and you measure everyone else with same parameters. Virginia Woolf quoted, “It is no use trying to sum people up.” True, ain’t it? Signing out, may God bless y’all.. :)