“At one magical instant in your early childhood, the page of a book—that string of confused, alien ciphers—shivered into meaning. Words spoke to you, gave up their secrets; at that moment, whole universes opened. You became, irrevocably, a reader.” –Alberto Manguel

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Thursday, January 31, 2013

Salt Of The Earth

Albert Camus
Hey.. Peeps.. :) There have been few of the authors I love to read in all the circumstances. I would love to meet them and talk them for hours. Its like I read them and feel like talking them, asking them so many things and tell them that they inspire me to the core. I consume much reading than normal people do, I believe -I'll be happy if I'll be given a bed and a book.

Albert Camus: I loved him always, and always wanted to meet him till I knew that he is no more and died in a car accident. "Life is meaningless" -he said. I completely agree. 


Haruki Murakami
Haruki Murakami: I came to know about him through a quote, and then it became a habit to search his quotes and explore more about him. All thanks to Goodreads. Would love to read his Sputnik Sweetheart & Norwegian Wood.


Chuck Palahniuk
Chuch Palahniuk: His quotes always use to think me so deep, I love to think and I keep thinking. I sleep and think and half of the times it feels like whether I slept or thought I slept. Always loved his quotes. Wanna read his Novel -Diary, I wish I could get a copy and find out what is there in it.


John Lennon
John Lennon: Always loved his music, loved the way the wrote every song. Love The Beatles. From where he got all those thoughts he kept in "Imagine". No more, died even much before my birth. 


Robert H. Schuller
Robert Harold Schuller: Came to know about him when I got copy of his novel: Success Is Never Ending & Failure Is Never Final and since then I love to read him. He inspires me in thousand ways and he is the one always there learn from. He is 86, still full of life.

Many more are there to write about: J. Krishnamurthi, Paulo Coelho, Hellen Keller, Mark Twain, Oscar Wilde, Robin Sharma, William Wordsworth, St. Taylor Coleridge, Elizabeth Browning and many more.. Love to read all these when I am alone: "When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely, it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone." -Tennessee Williams. Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)

Monday, January 28, 2013

Pendulum

Hey.. Peeps.. :) So how many of you have this question: where the hell I was from past 1 week? Okay without any dilly dallying I must answer and the answer is: I dunno, I was busy reading some weird things, listening some alternative music, thinking too much and getting myself into bad mood.

I’ve read somewhere: “Smile, it's easier than explaining why you're sad.. and it is true. So I kinda follow this. For me time has always mattered. I am always in hurry, God know where the hell I gotta go. Time has always been the most expensive thing to afford, today also. I kinda struggle to save my time but God knows where the hell I consume it.

Now I think if I’ll have time I’ll do this and that and finally on weekends when time seems to be in my favour, I get my own share of things waiting to be done on priority. Weekends –for me are the days I get after waiting for 5 ½ days. I always hate Mondays, right from my school days. It reminds me that so many days are there to pass to get a Sunday.

Rough sketch -by me :)
As a matter of big surprise, there were days when I hated Sundays. I hated staying at home, hated killing time sitting all day long. Now I wish I could have 2-3 days and I spend in bed, reading novels, no internet, no calls, good music, good food, and a couple of good friends. Think a lot and write a sonnet. Strange thing about pendulum is: it gets back to the start as it swings, without returning back the time.

I donno when life will offer me all this. To plan a single thing I have to plan so many things I don’t even wanna think about. Sometimes I can relate myself with this quote by Vin Diesel: You know when something feels so good but you're afraid to feel good about it? So you kinda hold back? Everyone says, Congratulations, you must be so happy. And you say something stupid like, I'm just doing what little I can with what little I have.

I heard a thousand blended notes,
While in a grove I sate reclined,
In that sweet mood when pleasant thoughts
Bring sad thoughts to the mind.
-William Wordsworth (Lines Written In Early Spring) So true, I guess all of us have felt the same at least once. Right? Signing Out, may God bless.. y’all.. :)

Monday, January 21, 2013

Shades Of Solitude

Hey.. Peeps.. :) “Why do people have to be this lonely? What's the point of it all? Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?” –Haruki Murakami, I just love this quote and it answers few of my weird questions.


Why is it: whenever I am off in the search of novacaine, I want few good lines to read and I can spend hours on Goodreads. Past few days I didn’t logged in to Goodreads, today I am not willing to log out. Why death metal, alternative and operatic music makes me feel more alone. Last week I changed my playlist, I removed all sore songs. Today I am copying my old playlist from past 15 minutes.

People change around, when you are happy they come and ask for the reason –they don’t leave you alone. When you are upset, they ignore like you’d never existed for them. This scares the shit out of me. I hate being a social wallflower, I hate being in such obnoxious situations with those people who play fair weather cocks.

No, am fine. Its just I am missing home. Feeling separated and blah.. blah.. all that my old cry. I won’t waste time to express all that shit. I always say I can never understand people. All the time wrong people were my pick, except few. I hate being so stupid, being so blind. I wish nobody could notice me, no phone calls, no mails, no pings. Am not broken, I am annoyed for making few wrong decisions. I don't cry over my mistakes, I rather prefer learning from them.

Feel like deactivating my Facebook profile, switching off my phone for a couple of days, stop greeting people for few days and then I should decide what the hell is my problem. What should I feed myself to satisfy the hunger of.. Gawd knows what. Do I sound complicated? Yes I do at times, I guess we all do. But I know somewhere it is gonna be fine. 

I gotta take a break from feeling sick and caring for bastards and bitches, feed time to myself and get back to normal with full throttle. “In order to understand the world, one has to turn away from it on occasion.” –Albert Camus, the more I read Camus, the more I love him. Signing out.. may God bless y’all.. :)

Friday, January 18, 2013

Dear God! Do Something..

Hey.. Peeps.. :) "Many people pray as if God were a big aspirin pill; they come only when they hurt." -B. Graham Dienert. Well I won't say I pray all day long, but yes prayer is a part of my daily schedule -I can't miss. I pray before sleeping, I know He knows everything but still I like to narrate and I know He never gets bore to listen me. Yeah.. I just know.

I remember when I was 6 something, I got a pair of new shoes and I just wanted it to show to God but we cannot take shoes to temple. Sounds stupid, I know I have always been like this -expecting the unexpected, wanna touch the intangible, dreaming a dream and here I've got another version of me. In words of people around me -its weird!! How many of you are nodding vertically? I'll kill you all and I mean it. *LOL*

This week was boring, hectic, ah.. didn't get time to blog. I know its all about priorities, well this week priorities changed. I just wanted to see some movies to get back to normal mode, so I gave all my time to movies, songs and whatever makes me feel good -strong coffee always works. But there is something now I want to happen -some dreams of mine, some long kept wishes and some unanswered prayers -whispered long back. 

Do something God, its been an year. Okay, I know you have your own plans for me. But this time its urgent, it really is. I just wish there could be an address where I can drop my letters to God or at least God could be online so that I could ping Him regarding the status of my prayer(s). I know "God is not a cosmic bellboy for whom we can press a button to get things." -Harry Emerson Fosdick. I don't pray with a clause that is not negotiable. I never make my prayers a deal. This time it looks like I reminded God 'bout my wishes and He just snoozed it for sometime. Putting my fingers crossed, let it happen. Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Negligibly Equal

Hey.. Peeps.. :) "Parents were the only ones obligated to love you; from the rest of the world you had to earn it." -Ann Brashares. So true, especially when you are in an unknown city between unknown bunch of people -mutually strange. For those who are tempted to ask me if am homesick -Yes am homesick and I won't mind listening Bieber if it can take me home if somebody will ask me so. (P.S. I hate Bieber). 

If anyone will ask me what is my first priority among family & career? -I would not waste time to think what to choose, obviously it will be my family though my family and career are negligibly equal on priority. I dunno 'bout others but I can satisfy only one at one time. To satisfy myself with my career I am am left unsatisfied in context of family. It sometimes gives me a feeling like -Goddamn I fucked up everything and sometimes I feel like I'll make it back to normal.

I really want to do few simple things that I've planned to do this time I'll go home. I'll take my family to dinner, I'll ask my dad to leave his wallet and cards at home -else he won't let me pay. I'll gift them surprisingly something I know they wanted in their life for so long but to fulfill my wishes they ignored their own and I wanna witness those expression they'll get when they'll remove the gift wrapper.

I'll cook something, it can be anything that I can cook -yes maggi is on #1 in the list. I'll ask my mom to take a day off from kitchen and I'll handle kitchen in auto pilot mode. I'll take my sister to a movie she'll like to watch and then make her shop any one thing she wants from her never ending list. I'll take a lot of pictures and ask my dad to take minimum 3 days off no matter what. 

Finally when I'll leave for Bangalore I'll get one big brownie and ask them to drop me to airport and say me good bye -crying is strictly prohibited. There are so many things in life that are on my priority. They are coming one by one -they change their positions also but family was, is and always on #1 no matter if the difference between my career and family is 0.1%. My parents have done a lot for me, I'll be happy if I'll do 10% of it for them. P.P.S. -Got gift for my sister and left bankrupt. Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Scars


























I run through my life;
bare feet on the sands of time,
tryna hold the best moments;
which were abysmally mine.

Past seems to be beautiful;
present is a struggle I gotta win,
future scares me to the core;
and this is the world I live in.

There were times I fought alone;
and made wishes on shooting stars,
buried in the corner of my heart;
and all they’ve given me is scars.

The distance between dreams & me;
peels my wounds to the reality,
they bleed and aches so deep;
and I try to cover it with fantasy.

Seems like I am completely lost;
and there is no way out,
I feel locked in the vicious circle;
no one comes to help and I scream loud.

I gotta get out of this;
gotta play my sorrows on guitar(s),
no matter if it tears me apart;
I gotta live with these scars.

~Shreya ♥
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Wednesday, January 2, 2013

No Escape
























It started as fun to see you all the time;
and turned into a secret desire so new,
which then turned into a strong hope;
and now it is a decision to be with you.

We communicate through telepathy;
but there is still something you dunno yet,
I dunno what’s there in your heart;
but this is something I am not gonna forget.

I walked the paths of love bare feet;
Roses are less and thorns are ahead,
but I gotta walk the same road;
‘cause there is no escape instead.

Is there something you wanna tell;
that burns at the back of your mind?
that makes you feel butterflies like I do;
and calling my name from behind?

I’ve started skipping my sleep;
still I dream of you all day long,
there is so much to tell you;
so I am writing you this song.

I walked the paths of love bare feet;
roses are less and thorns are ahead,
but I gotta walk the same road;
‘cause there is no escape instead.

~Shreya ♥
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