Sunday, April 28, 2013
Hey.. Peeps.. :) Well, people try to understand me and end up asking what the hell I want. Am I a riddle or a puzzle to be solved or an unproved theorem people try to prove? I mean, I am an optimist and moreover a realist. I don’t live in fool’s paradise pretending myself to be so optimistic. I have my share of fear and insecurities. I do feel bouts of loneliness, I do have setbacks. I don’t cry like other girls of my age, but that doesn't prove ‘am an ice queen. I have a huge heart that’s been broken couple of times and somehow I've assembled it to work.
I really don’t want anyone to care for me or fall for me, for I can’t return all that not even in installments. I just can’t afford that. I know love doesn't work on give and take policy; real love has no proposal, no rejection, no commitment and no promises. It is a complicated thing; I don’t wanna be a part of. It’s not my cup of tea, love and I just can’t stand in same room together. One has to leave; it just can’t happen to me. I don’t believe in relationships and marriages
as of now.
I know I sound complicated to an extreme degree, well that’s more of me. I am no angel, am no sweet and I am not a fantasy girl –that people usually are fond of. I am nocturnal and suffer from insomnia. I am more of me, I get angry and I fight a lot, I break things, I get mood swings, I make mistakes
hell lot of. I scream
my voice out; I use all abusive words am aware of –as per my vocabulary.
I like metal even heavy metal, death metal and gothic metal. Only music can
control me and nothing else.
I am funny only if you can get the joke. Of course am normal, even a notch up. I am extraordinarily bad and ridiculously good. I am a tough combo of a kind. I wonder why two people can’t be just good friends, why one has to fall for other to complicate things. Damn! These expectations, they never end. It’s sick to lose a friend when you mean more than a friend to them. I just don’t wanna be there when it happens, just wanna cut it out. Phew! One thing is for sure, it’s good to be bad if it is for something good. –sounds complicated? Signing out.. may God bless y’all.. :)
P.S. A note to all those who claim that they've understood me.