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Sunday, December 29, 2013

Conspiracy Of Time

“Being with you and not being with you is the only way I have to measure time.” ―Jorge Luis Borges

















No matter you are with me or not;
about the time I’ve spent on you,
I’m sure never gonna regret it;
time is a misleading thing though.

Today or tomorrow, night or day;
or how long the pendulum may swing,
one thing that’s never gonna change is;
love you forever, time’s nothing.

Unfolding the conspiracy of time;
back in time when we met,
was it a chance or destined to happen;
whatever, it is to name yet.

Looked beyond the grapevine;
like you’re never stranger to me,
never read your mind though;
all that is still a mystery.

Seems like you have a spell on me;
forgot; all of my rescues are gone,
have few fading memories;
that I never wanna lose to oblivion.

Unfolding the conspiracy of time;
back in time when we met,
was it a chance or destined to happen;
whatever, it is to name yet.

~Shreya ♥

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Thursday, December 26, 2013

Law Of Separation

Hey.. Peeps.. :) So this year is gonna end soon. Or I must say yay, new year is just around the corner. I know this year comparatively less posts from me and my blog stats definitely came down. Lost some active readers, and miss their presence in my comment box. I definitely never stop thinking of writing but to pen them down now takes time and I hate myself to no limit when I skip posts I wanna write or lose a nice thought to oblivion or go through writer’s block phase.

Well am badly homesick again, recently sister moved to Mumbai and mom-dad are left alone at home. At times I feel so paternal about my sister that I wanna move to Mumbai too, just to be with her and help her grow. But then I think let her know how this world works, and let her learn things. I never wanted to be away from my family. Well, who does? But I had dreams (wait! Did I say I had? Well, I still have) and I just came to start career.

Separation is something that usually brings people close. Things we don’t realize when we have them mark their value when we lose them or when they are away. That’s how law of separation is. We miss things and we find that hollow spot of pain that never seems to heal. Now I dream of having my sister, mom and dad around at same time and having dinner. When I was home, I loved to have dinner in front of TV or reading something. I never cared about that time having family around; maybe I had in my mind that it will be like this forever. But things do change, and so do we.

Yeah, after like 2 years I logged in to my twitter account. Last update was: “job is the only missing piece in the jigsaw puzzle of my life.” –that was 2 years back when I was home, and looking out for job. Now, I can find too many missing pieces. Pathetic is when I don’t even know some of the missing pieces in the jigsaw puzzle of my life having no name. One thing that has not changed is –surprise(s) that life has always offered me. I can even go to home any day I want, and I will. The day I will feel like its threshold now, I will get the tickets and go. Sometimes, I guess I should take risks. Just wanna know what’s next if I do what I really felt like doing. Signing out.. may God bless y’all.. :) 

Saturday, December 14, 2013

Talk

“I wanted to talk to someone. But who? It’s moments like this, when you need someone the most, that your world seems smallest.” ―Rachel Cohn























Days turned into months;
and its long we spoke last,
it wasn’t easy to make it without you;
but yeah, pendulum sweeps fast.

Don’t know how are you but;
I have heard through the grapevine,
you have been alone again;
tryna make everything work fine.

If a part of you refuse to agree;
usually it has to be heart,
well, you can talk about it;
I’ll be listening right from the start.

All the telepathy we used to share;
has become weak in time,
been replaced by memories;
and this is all I have mine.

Don’t care if it’s too late;
wish to write you a song,
guess we’re in same boat now;
dunno if am right or wrong.

But if a part of you refuse to agree;
usually it has to be heart,
well, you can talk about it;
I’ll be listening right from the start.

~Shreya ♥

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P.P.S. Written In Insomnia!!

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Fly

“You wanna fly, you got to give up the shit that weighs you down.” ―Toni Morrison



















There is sky out there;
painted in blue so bright,
it’s endless, all yours;
give up the fight.

Grow above the boundaries;
dare to see the other side,
break the chains of insecurities;
that scares you inside.

Set yourself free; lift your feet and fly,
world ain’t that bad, look that azure sky.

You may stumble;
it may knock you down,
but you gotta start again;
to rise from the ground.

There gotta be people;
who will laugh and stare,
for every time you fall;
gotta get up and shift the gear.

So set yourself free; lift your feet and fly,
world ain’t that bad, look that azure sky.

~Shreya ♥

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P.P.S. Written In Insomnia!!

Saturday, November 30, 2013

Into You

“In my story you're the villain. But in my heart, you're still the reigning King.” ―Coco J. Ginger

 























If I could ask you;
do you still remember me?
I am that somebody;
who is lost inside your memory.
Is that this easy?
to forget someone you know,
if you could remember;
it’s not that long ago.

I should get over you;
but I’ve been missing you,
am still so much into you;
and you’ve got no clue.

Never had much time,
you were always late;
never knew what you want;
what you like and what you hate.
You got busy in your life;
and I’ve become a history,
you’ve got so much to add on;
and to me it’s all mystery.

So I should get over you;
but I’ve been missing you,
am still so much into you;
and you’ve got no clue.

~Shreya ♥

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Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Under The Stars

“All a girl really wants is for one guy to prove to her that they are not all the same.” ―Marilyn Monroe

























Happens with me much often;
when darkness falls and ‘am alone,
you almost conquer my mind;
and I think of you staring at the phone.

Life is not that bad though;
but something unfamiliar I miss,
both, in the hours of sorrow;
and in the moments of bliss.

All I wish is you to be with me;
around; in the lonely hours,
lying right next to me;
talking to me under the stars.

You can temme your secrets;
all your sorrows I could divide,
reveal all your deepest confessions;
I am ready to listen, don’t hide.

I could be awake all night;
and listen to every word of you,
I bet I won’t be bored;
guess you’ve got the clue.

And all I wish is you to be with me;
around; in the lonely hours,
lying right next to me;
talking to me under the stars.

~Shreya ♥

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Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Somebody

























For every saddest day I had;
I wished somebody to be along,
somebody to stay my side;
even when am wrong.

Somebody to see my mistakes;
the one who could let me explain,
all the reasons of happiness;
all the moments of pain.

Somebody who never change;
no matter what comes next,
who accompanies me;
both, in worst and the best.

To understand unsaid words;
one who has courage to look deep inside,
make me feel like perfectly fine;
till there is nothing left to hide.

Somebody who could listen to me;
for every time I confess,
make me feel back to normal;
and love me no less.

Somebody who never change;
no matter what comes next,
who accompanies me;
both, in worst and the best.

~Shreya ♥

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Saturday, November 16, 2013

Cognitive Damage

























Every time you make me madder than I am;
and expect me to be nice,
boy I’ve figured out your game;
so am gonna play it wise.
No matter how much I try;
but my best is never enough,
dunno what you’re expecting of me;
whatever, it makes me feel so rough.

When I am alone and no one nearby;
I can find someone in my head except me,
dunno if it is cognitive damage or;
something I am losing but I can’t see.

Worst part is that you don’t give a damn;
and all you think I am is naïve,
so to prove you am not the one;
I better have a decision to leave.
that’s how it is gonna be;
but I am not sure,
neither I wanna get this over;
nor I want more.

When I am alone and no one nearby;
I can find someone in my head except me,
dunno if it is cognitive damage or;
something I am losing but I can’t see.

~Shreya ♥

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P.P.S.2 Belated happy Diwali to all my fellow bloggers.

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Juxtapositioned

Hey.. Peeps.. :) Diwali is coming on the wings of the wind and like last year I will be away from home, wow! am so in love with my work. No possibility to go home, and guess moreover it is a decision –made after so many permutations and combinations with huge expectations that stand nowhere.

Work, dreams, desires, reality, expectations, imaginations run over a parallel track –seems never to meet. They are all packed together in juxtaposition that you can make the difference and can never count the similarities. Our problems and solutions are somewhat arranged in same pattern. Once you figure out the difference, and its over –that’s the common deal with problems & solutions.

We compare stuffs and evaluate so many things and sometimes it is not even required. Every damn thing in this world is juxtapositioned. If not then we –decaying organic matter, somehow arrange it in same pattern long for the solution. It is like disassembling up a solved jigsaw puzzle and then putting it back to solve it –trying to arrange every piece that fits.

Loneliness was rarely felt. But being absent at such a grand festival invites me to grand ennui I never wanna be part of. Anyways, Bangalore rains and mood swings have a deal in common –it can happen anytime, I hate both. Hoping coming week to be good! Currently listening to Feels Like Home by Chantal Kreviazuk. Signing out, may God bless y’all.. :)

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Mutual Antipathy

Hey.. Peeps.. :) If only we could get scars for happiness, life would be different. For us best is never enough, and we value it when it is gone. Just a thought, we get scars for pain and it is considered as legacy of pain. What’s legacy of happiness? Gawd knows! We complain so much about pain and thank less for what we have been blessed with.

Anyways, “When we don't know who to hate, we hate ourselves.” ―Chuck Palahniuk, and this hate gets multiplied and becomes so huge that you can never get rid of it. Concept of hate starts with mutual antipathy. Yeah, you can’t hate somebody unless it is mutual. And it is not limited till not talking, it is much more.

But you know, when you are being good and people consider you bad then you get to think of bad. You find out the positive aspect of bad, too. You own a soft corner for bad and you can easily relate with it, that’s how we calculate. If the theorem for hate has to be written, then it would be something like this: Wrong assumptions in the absence of understanding followed by impulsive decisions always equates to mutual antipathy.


We all are decaying organic matter; we spend life in break up and make up. We are so busy in other shit, that we do not make time to live. Life is too short to hate. Does all this not indicate how little we have idea about life? There is always so much to explore than we know. But there will always be people who won’t stop hating and nourishing their hate to the level of equilibrium. Think! Signing out.. may God bless y’all.. :)

Friday, October 11, 2013

Fading Like A Shadow

























Can hear the echoes of silence;
shadows are stealing the light,
walk me home, I am alone;
lost in the middle of the night.

Don’t know which way to go;
losing sense of control,
no one to tell what to do;
opposed by my own soul.

Leaving no proof of existence;
am fading like a shadow,
this world seems not enough;
wish could escape outta window.

Sleepless nights that haunts;
scary long wandering hours,
deepest thoughts; never expressed,
that passed while staring at the stars.

All I can sense is numb;
can feel nothing at all,
wanna pretend am flying;
for a while, when I fall.

Leaving no proof of existence;
am fading like a shadow,
this world seems not enough;
wish could escape outta window.

~Shreya ♥

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Wednesday, October 2, 2013

It’s You

























If you ever ask me who’s that somebody;
who keeps me awake in the darkest hours,
I have gotta tell you and make you believe;
it’s you who keeps me wishing on the stars.

If you ask me who’s that somebody;
who makes me dream all day long?
I will whisper into your ears;
it’s you who makes me go on and on.

Guess you don’t even have a clue;
I claim that I’ve lost half of my heart,
and guess am gonna lose rest of it;
gotta tell you my story from the start.

If you ask me who’s that somebody;
Whose absence kills me?
I may take your name and tell;
it’s you with whom I wanna be.

It you ask me who’s that somebody;
for whom I can cry from all my heart,
guess you know it, moreover feel it;
it’s you who tears me apart.

But you don’t even have a clue;
I claim that I’ve lost half of my heart,
and guess am gonna lose rest of it;
gotta tell you my story from the start.

~Shreya ♥

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Sunday, September 29, 2013

Just Do It!

Hey..Peeps.. :) So um.. I got some time to write here. Did I say time? Oh yeah, I dunno what the hell am I doing with all my time. Anyways, nothing new or special to tell ya’ll. Um.. guess I do. Yeah, the thing is: I have just thought of going to Kerala, somewhere around this November, yet to plan. But before that all I gotta do is to buy a camera, a DSLR. Whoa, I can hear myself saying: are you freaking kidding? Though my head is nodding vertically, but am saying “NO”.

Know what, all the things we plan and wanna do –we should do. A part of me says: Look, don’t plan things. Just act. Enjoy random things happening with you, around you. Surprise yourself, and go crazy. Enjoy, date, drink, dance and work. Just do it! But guess, now am fed up of calculating the permutation & combination of certain things like how they are gonna happen, and how am I gonna do it, and Gawd knows what not. I don’t wanna be involved in it anymore.

So all I gonna do is, to do everything I wanna do. Like bunking office for a movie, having brownies in the middle of night, be patient with idiots, color my hair blue, get my left wrist tattooed, shed few kgs, play guitar live, publish my novel, meet Billie Joe Armstrong, break some rules I made for myself and care a damn about what people think of me.

I know the list is pretty huge, and it keeps growing. I always wanted a group of people who talk about that “broad intellect”, whose life doesn’t revolve around –love, sex, money and other shit things, who don't take part in fuckity fuck and who have courage to view life from different dimension. Anyways, these things are too heavy to get into head so easily; especially when the world has become a big enterprise of machines, and people are turned into robots.

Goodreads has always been something I have been fishing for. I dunno, but I am reading so much about Toba Beta lately. I wonder why there is no Wikipedia page for him; wanna know more about this gentleman. “There are people who like to be alone without feeling lonely at all.” –Toba Beta. Currently listening songs by Nirvana, love Kurt Cobain. Signing out, may God bless y’all.. :)

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Someone You Never Knew

























All your fading memories;
creeps in the darkest hour,
bleeds my wounds so bad;
peels off my deepest scar.

You've got your own world;
left all the promises due,
gonna walk this one way street;
and the reason is you.
So let’s be strangers now;
you need to cut me out,
like someone you never knew;
you never think about.

Did someone replace me;
you've got somebody new?
‘cause I doubt this before;
that you ain't gonna continue.

You've got your own world;
left all the promises due,
gonna walk this one way street;
and the reason is you.
So let’s be strangers now;
you need to cut me out,
like someone you never knew;
you never think about.

~Shreya ♥

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