Enigma Overshadowed

Hey.. Peeps.. :) This week has a good beginning. Yesterday I came to know that my candidate is selected. We recruiters celebrate new joining. :) I hate Monday(s), but it was a Monday that brought me this good news. I had a mindset that: Monday(s) are bad and nothing good can happen on Monday, but life has proved me wrong and this time being wrong felt so great. *yay* 


I am keeping my fingers crossed till my candidate joins for my client. Umm.. Yesterday when I reached my room, then nobody was there. I locked my room from inside, got myself on bed and jumped so many times. Yes! This is my common way to express happiness, when I have nobody to share with. Sounds crazy, right?? 

Hmm.. Yesterday was good, today is good then why the hell today am not happy? I am fed up of these sick mood swings. I am suffering from Insomnia, Mood-Swing, Nostalgia, Deja Vu and many more weird feelings are there in the list. I don't like being so whimsical. I feel like being captured by something so enigmatic. People wonder, what am I? I make them shrug their shoulders pouting out their lips, they label me sick. 

I just want this world to disappear for a while so that I can connect me with myself. I wish I could forget the target, dreams, aims, passion and the fanatic urban lifestyle and land myself in a realm where all I can feel is numb. I know, its sick. Few lines by William Wordsworth are flashing in my mind right now and these lines suit my current situation: 

I heard a thousand blended notes;
while in a grove I sat reclined,
in that sweet mood when pleasant thoughts;
bring sad thoughts to the mind.

I am happy actually, but I can't convince myself to be satisfied. Mood swings knock my door unannounced, unlike rains: they don't show signs of their arrival. I've to welcome them like un-welcomed guests. But I've decided to welcome them with same frequency as per my long kept promise to myself. I wish I could escape this sickness. Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)