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Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Embarrassing Moments

Hey.. Peeps.. :) What could be the worst embarrassing moment? Here am gonna tell you the worst one happened with me. Grr!! Two days back when I slept I was okay, but when I woke up yesterday morning then I had a red mark on the left side of my neck; an insect bite, I guess. It has no pain, just a mark. And you know what it exactly looks like.. Yeah (you got it right, hmm.. smart, lol) some love bite. Gosh!!

It was okay, but today I went out for some bank work and it was so embarrassing out there. Everyone in taxi was looking at that red mark from the corner of their eyes. So, all the hawk's eyes were on me. I was like: Oh Geez!! I wished I'd worn out some high-neck dress or at least a scarf to wrap around.

So I decided to give them a damn, let them stare. Don't they have other things to look at? At least they can act that they have avoided that highlighted mark, but no.. they locked their eyes there. Wow!! I was honored, Sheesh!! Ain't it insane? Who cares? Ugh!!

Then I reached the bank, I asked the (female) bank employee to gimme the form for mobile banking. She handed it to me, staring at that mark. I heard myself saying: Aww.. not again. She said: what happened over there? Then after a pause and before I explain anything she said: "Oh!!" Pouting her lips out and raising her eyebrows in wonder. As if she knows everything. I said: what oh? Its just an insect bite, you want one? she said: ah!! okay. 

This was really embarrassing, its always embarrassing when the spot light is on you and all the eyes are on you. It felt like: am nucleus and they are electrons moving in an orbit. Blergh!! Finally, I reached home and then it was fine. I wonder how people search that particular thing to point out? I bet, if I had that same mark on my hand then nobody would have asked me: what happened? These are peoples. Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Venus ♀ Vs Mars ♂

Hey.. Peeps.. :) We all belong to same genus then why the hell people differentiate so much between a male and a female? Being in a same group i.e. Homo Sapiens is not enough to chuck these stupid differences? I mean why all these ole brains don't get this?

All around the world males are dominating. I know many readers will disagree, its just my opinion. I think (especially) India is a male dominating country. We girls do same things like boys, we study same, we act same, we do all those things a boy does. I can't figure out why still so many differences? Why a girl has to fulfill all the requirements a boy wants? Why girls are supposed to offer dowry? No answers!!

A boy comes late: doesn't matter; a girl comes late: jaws drop. Why? Keep searching answers. If a boy changes partner for sex means his girl is not satisfying him, but if a girl changes her partner for sex then she is labeled a slut. Wow!! Argh!! These things are so annoying. Eve-teasing is common in metro cities, I can't stand those guys who participate in these kinda activities, I wonder how these bastards derive fun in molesting a girl? I would love to teach them a lesson, I must say I have taught many. I love to pay my own bills, I love to be self dependent. So why should I fear guys? This life is God's gift, they have no right to rule on us.

Few days ago, mom asked me to oil my hair. I just don't like putting oil in my hairs, ew!! She shouted on me saying: look at your hairs, they are turning so dry, so rough. You will suffer hair fall. She added, if you won't look good then who will marry you? That was more than enough. I said, mom I love rough hairs, okay. I love looking like a garbage. And I am happy single if a guy is marrying me for my hairs or features. I donno why all moms are so much concerned about their daughter's marriage? Don't they have other things to think about? Blergh!!

I am me, I will dress the way I like not the way that guy who will marry me, I am not a mannequin after all,I have feelings. I am not a thing to flaunt. I will make this thing clear to "that" guy. I don't wanna marry ever. No, I love my freedom. Ah!!

It is said that females are from Venus ♀ and men are from Mars ♂. Venus: The Goddess of Love & Beauty. Mars: The God of War. As also mentioned in the book: Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus by John Gray. They are from different planets, is this the main reason to differentiate? I guess not. Still the reason is unexplained. 

I wish a world without these differences, a world where both the sexes are respected and honored. A place where gender equality is the religion and every single girl and guy is glad to be its citizen. Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Not Gonna Fix It

Everyday I sleep with a broken heart,
hoping for next day to be better;
but days keep passing on like always,
and I keep on posting Lord, my prayer letter(s).
Morning comes with dawn chorus and sunshine,
reminding me there is a chance to mend it;
but it hurts when I try to put broken pieces together,
and again pieces of my heart goes to split.

So am not gonna fix it again,
'cause I know the result is gonna be same;
better learn to live with a broken heart,
rather fixing it and getting it broken apart.

Evening comes with beautiful sunset(s),
teaching me the sun also goes down;
but again I get drowned in the streams of regret,
looking at the broken pieces around.
Night comes with silence and darkness,
telling me everything comes to the end;
I put my hands back-head curling back to loneliness,
again thinking of the chances of my heart to mend.

So am not gonna fix it again,
'cause I know the result is gonna be same;
better learn to live with a broken heart,
rather fixing it and getting it broken apart.

~Shreya ♥
P.S. My creation, please do not copy!!

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Captain Of My Heart

I wish I could get a guy who make me smile,
the one who never leave my heart fragile;
the one who make me feel juvenile,
who stay loyal with me right from the start;
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

I wish I could get a guy who could sing me a song,
the one  who make me feel so strong;
the one who accepts me even when I am wrong,
the one who never break me apart;
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

I wish I could get a guy who lend me his shoulder to cry,
the one whose presence make me feel fly so high;
one who save all my roses even when they turn dry,
one who don't count my success on the chart;
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

I wish I could get a guy who don't ask me a change,
the one who perfectly fix my broken heart and arrange;
with whom all my sorrows and happiness I could exchange,
the one who is master in this art;
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

I wish I could get a guy who could buy me happiness;
who is a charming prince and make me his princess,
the one who takes away all my stress;
the one who love me till death do us part,
and I will call him the captain of my heart.

~Shreya ♥
P.S. My creation, please do not copy!!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Heart Is..

Everybodys' heart has been broken at least once;
I am sure it was of those who took chance,
its better to live with a broken heart;
rather than waiting for something to start.

Heart ain't a glass to replace when it breaks;
its something made of feelings it takes,
its a corner to submit all feelings;
some play with it and some save it like diamond rings.

I wish I could get two hearts;
'cause mine is broken into many parts,
I didn't bleed when it was shattered;
few tears were out but for no one it mattered.

There is no market where hearts are mend;
it will still have a scar no matter how much you spend,
its something that runs with feelings not material things;
people play with it but can't heal the pain it brings.

Heart is heart, it was made to be broken;
and people leave it unspoken,
oh, its a tragedy and it kills no end;
whole life goes searching a chance for it to mend.

~Shreya ♥
P.S. My creation, please do not copy!!

Saturday, November 19, 2011

The Gray Matter

Hey.. Peeps.. :) Our gray matter is the best weapon in every situation. You agree? Whatever we do, gray matter (brain) plays the lead role in it. Life is easy with brain, imagine a life without brain. Its just like imagining a company without CEO, an electric bulb without circuit, and a pen without ink.

Our brain many times shows us illusion: showing same color different on different surfaces, mirage for example. While reading about mysteries of brain I came to know about all this. God is genius, God is great!! He has gifted us this organ. We generally don't use whole brain, people use only that much is required. It has more to deal with- many spiritual persons have said this.

What is the color of the tiles?
We people use 4% of brain only, while Einstein used 16% to give E=MC^2. He was genius. Here is a picture, in this picture two colors are visible: top surface is dark gray, lower surface is dull gray. Now this is an illusion by brain. Everyone will say there are two different colors, but there is one single color. Confused? Now lets solve this mystery: Put your hand (to hide) on the middle section of this picture (from where it is joined). What you see? (You'll see same color on both surfaces). No this is not a miracle, all this is the game of the gray matter. (I saw this on NAT Geo, TV show: Test Your Brain). 

We have power of brain, that's why we are at top in food chain. We rule the ecosystem. Size doesn't matter; but thinking, logic does. When an interviewer asked a candidate in IAS (Indian Administrative Service) interview: What if your mother is being a prostitute? Here is the answer of the candidate who got selected: If my mother is being a prostitute, then my father will be the only costumer. What a great answer. We have brains, we can do whatever we want to. Life is easy, we are gifted with whatever we need; so use it, live it, love it 'cause its now or never. Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

What Your Handwriting Tells?

Hey.. Peeps.. :) Have you ever noticed what your handwriting tells about you? If yes; then what do you know about your handwriting? If no; then do you wanna know? Um.. I can hear you saying "yes" (in whisper). Okay, Sure? Handwriting can figure out basic nature and psychological state of a person. Yea but it doesn't guarantee about future predictions. To analyse your handwriting you must be above 15. You don't believe? But its true.

I have been reading about handwriting these days, I am loving it. Few months ago I read about "micro-expressions" and works of Paul Ekman, after reading it I kept on staring at people. Its weird, yea people found me insane but its amazing knowing all this. They think am sick. I can spend hours on staring for these changing micro-expressions which lasts few seconds only. I keep on reading my slam book, I try to analyse the handwriting of my friends, and match the behaviour about them. Now I am reading about handwriting analysis and graphology.

Here are few facts about handwriting analysis:

1. If you write on a plane A4 sheet and your sentence goes slightly upward then it indicates the optimistic approach. If it goes down then it indicates your pessimistic side.

2. If you write round fonts then it shows you have a soft behaviour. It includes humble, soft-spoken, sweet-tempered kinda nature.

3. If you write pointed fonts then it shows aggressive nature, mature thinking, short-tempered side.

4. If you write a word with separated letters or with big space then it tells about the loneliness you are going through.

5. If you write open letters like the dot of "i" with an open circle, open P or open R then it shows the angry side.

6. If you place the dot of letter "I" (i) exactly over "I" or you cut the letter "T" (t) with nice position (not away from main body) then it tell about your good concentration, your good attention

7. If you write fonts of approximately same size then it tells about your intelligence, it tells about good power of thinking.

8. If you overwrite then it shows the lazy side of you.

9. If you write straight (not inclined towards right or left) fonts then it shows your stoic nature.

10. If you write fonts inclined towards left then it tells about your logic, it tells that you possess a good logic thinking. If you write fonts inclined towards right then it tells about your creative side.

P.S. This is a part of whatever I have read or analyzed. There is much to explore. Our fonts change slightly when we are happy or sad, handwriting can tell about our mental state. May be some people find it boring but its just an analysis, a study. Big decisions can't be taken on this. All this is to get a rough idea. Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Hidden Dreams

Hey.. Peeps.. :) What are your hidden dreams? C'mon don't say you don't have any? We all possess some desires or dreams that are unsaid, unshared. Ain't it? Take a minute and think of it.. what's that thing that you wanna happen or you wanna own? It may be anything: playing a guitar live, having a diamond ring in your fourth finger, getting an autographed football from Wayne Rooney or to own Audi series. Got any? I guess: yes. Right?

I too possess a very strong desire to write songs. Yea this is a very secret, long kept dream of mine. I think of writing lyrics for singers like: Taylor Swift, Rihanna, Lady Gaga, Leona Lewis, Kelly Clarkson and the list goes on. But I know I am not a patch on them and this is aiming too much. This is sad, but then a fleeting thought comes to me saying every artist learns, fails, re-starts. All this makes my desire more strong.

I donno whether it will turn into reality or not, I only know I will keep on writing. There are many dreams on my list but I know dreaming is not enough. I know it takes a great deal to live your dreams, to chase it, to own it. We have to be masters in being patient, hard-work, optimist & honest. And all this is not a cakewalk.

From past few days I have been reading about song writing. It requires so much, its a long process which includes several levels and so many rejections. Rejections are always heart breaking. Oh God!! But then I think, if I will not face rejections or struggle then story of my life will be boring. I would have nothing special to tell about me. All this separates us from crowd. 

God gives every bird its food but He doesn't throw them into their nests- quoted an author. This line always inspires me. I keep on saying to me: Go confidently in the directions of your dreams, live the life you have imagined. I promised myself: to never regret this life, to never lose hope, to welcome happiness and sorrow with same frequency. I really have to burn midnight oil. So pull up your socks girl, you have miles to go. Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Faith In Lord

When you have a broken heart,
And you can't go back to the start;
When it hurts to move forward,
And you can't go back to your world;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you wanna sleep but you can't,
When you don't get all that you want;
When you find your dreams shatter,
And all your friends begin to flatter;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you lose something you die for,
When you lose all the reasons to adore;
When you work and it doesn't work out,
When you have to face the fall out;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When tears cover your face,
When to wanna win some race;
When you wanna make your dreams,
When you are drowned in the streams;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

When you wanna confess something,
And you are afraid of the shame it will bring;
When you feel like albatross over your neck,
And it hurts to look back;
Then put all your faith in Lord,
And all your wounds will be cured.

~Shreya ♥
P.S. My creation, please do not copy!!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Do You Help Yourself ?

Hey.. Peeps.. :) We generally complain why its happening to me? or why the hell its with me only? In support to my answer I will say: Actually, because we don't help ourselves enough. We don't accept it, we keep on blaming circumstances and others. All this yields frustration leaving us broken. I think: "we don't try all possible options". I too.

2 days ago a friend of mine called me, I was glad to see him calling. He used to be a good friend of mine in college. Helping, supporting are few of his plus points. :) He explained me how to be positive in worst conditions, he told me various stories of people who are victims of worst conditions. After college my other friends never called me, never even replied for my messages. Should I still call them friends? But still am left with 6-7 friends who regularly contact me, reply me, support me and I will never forget these people. And I will always help them in every possible way. Thanks to them for always being my side.

I think: "we get things easily and we never thank for it but when we have to struggle for something then we have a list of complaints". Robert Harold Schuller has always been a source of inspiration for me. His write ups has always helped me. Have you ever read his book: Success Is Never Ending; Failure Is Never Final. It can change your thinking, and it will bring loads of hope and optimism in you. I love this book. 

Have a look at this video: It will definitely bring hope and positive energy in you. Life is good, don't complicate it. Don't be helpless, we can help ourselves. Never leave hope. Good luck for life!! Signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Welcome Winters

Hey.. Peeps.. :) Aakchhooo!! Suffering from cough. Aww.. :( Happy winters :) I love this season.. yea. I love all that all day long curling inside the blanket, coffee, cold breezes, and rubbing hands to escape cold. I wake up like a curled chicken. These days mornings are just beautiful, little mist, cool weather, less crowd on streets, birds too wake up late these days.

These days Taylor Swift's song "back to december" ♪ wake me up (as its my current alarm tone; nice song). Birds sing making life more beautiful. If you are upset then try waking up early around 5:30 a.m. and go for a walk, it feels great, really!! I shiver from cold still I love it. All those empty streets, makes me feel good. I walk same path every day still it is new for me everyday.. new faces, new pets, and my new hopes guide me back to life. It makes me feel am not alone. I never was.

These days I wake up late, laziness is having crush on me and it don't allow me to leave bed and I switch off the alarm and sleep again. Zzzzz.. But no, not from tomorrow. Aakchhooo!! Again I sneezed (Oh God bless me!!). Its been fifth day I am suffering from cold, but this is an awesome season and minute cold is not a big reason to dislike winters.

Heaven seems to be in front of me whenever I hold a cup of steaming coffee and take a sip in chilled hours. Life's good, I am living it. Currently reading about human expressions & feelings. From past 8 days (to be precise) I am reading about it, its great to know about human feelings. I love it. :) Have you ever tried reading Paul Ekman's: Emotion's Revealed, Telling Lies? Try, its nice. Okay.. take care, signing out.. may God bless y'all.. :)